Late Nights.

Those nights that I couldn’t sleep. Last night. So many things just overwhelmed my mind and I just didn’t know what to do, think, believe. As I sat there and watched Bridesmaids it got me thinking, when will I get to meet my Prince Charming? Sure, I am young, I’m only 19 but, that feeling you get when you’re with that special someone and it just feels like forever. That feeling of forever. I miss that feeling. I want that feeling. Two years ago, I had that feeling. Yet, to my realizations I came to realize that that feeling was merely my blind heart. Recently, that feeling arose again. Recently, I got my heart broken, again. I guess love will come to those who don’t look. I’m trying so hard to not look but, I am. That lonely feeling, of having someone there. I guess I’m looking now for all the wrong reasons. I hope my lying to myself will go away. Funny how truthful I can be towards everyone else, now just not myself.